A letter from Nov 09, 2023

Dear FutureMe, I don't think there is anything that worries me at the moment. Now I'm only worried about my grades, which will depend on my mood in 6 months), right now I'd just like to be alone, although I always avoid loneliness. I don't know anything specific right now I don't feel it, even my classmates cried, but really, either I can hide my emotions and feelings well, or the events that happened to me were not so strong that they broke me. I would like to be more trusting and not suspect people after 6 months. doubt is ******* me from the inside, really, I think too much and look for something else under every human word. In 6 months I will be 17 years old and maybe then I will get rid of my biggest complex. It seems to me that if I have a nose operation, all my problems will disappear. I want not to be too dependent on other people's opinions. But now I would like to make money the most, sometimes I really feel bad for asking my parents for money, I don't know if I will have that skill in 6 months, but I will start studying graphic design from December 23rd, 6 months later I will definitely remember why it didn't work out in November. But I don't give up and I have many goals related to it. Once in a while I want such a person that I can simply not suspect, that's all...maybe after 6 months...