A letter from July 11th, 2023

Dear Top 3 Therapist, Okay I’ll a few days late in sending this one out, what a pity, never mind. My pathetic beard continues to grow to a slightly larger pathetic beard. Now obviously my parents hate it, and it is general consensus that it looks **** (except Dan so good on him, but maybe should get his eyes tested), however there’s no way I’m shaving. I’ll take whatever facial hair I can get whether or not it’s pathetic and ugly. God knows if my voice has changed, it’s still cracking so it’s obviously doing something, but I can’t really tell myself and I haven’t don’t a voice recording in a while cause there wasn’t any point, but once I’ve got some time alone (ha!) I’ll do another one. I still need to practice using my ****, haven’t been able to in weeks since it’s impossible to hide it in this tiny flat. It’s a miracle it hasn’t been discovered already, there were some close calls but I’ve managed so far, certainly not going to rock the boat and try practicing though. I do with the lip was a bit higher on the back of it so I need to be wary of that when I use it, or I could try manufacturers some extra piece if I’m desperate. Sharks have been beaten, so yay! I have my blood test results and I’ll admit the low neutrophil count is slightly concerning but no one’s contacted me about anything so I’m going to assume I’m still safe. If it decreases again at my next blood test then we’ll have to do something. I’ll probably repeat second year but only the failed exams, like Cliff. I don’t see myself retaking 4 exams now, I think it’s the best decision to hold off till February and such. I can’t revise here but if I’m in England, better yet at uni, I should be able to. Also I might contact disability services to just double check that my issues are just laziness and not something I can get extra time for, cause that’d be nice. Placement is kinda sorted, at least with he casino, just can’t forget to contact Farnborough in September. At least the casino work seems easy, now if I was being payed for all the days I’m working that’d be more ideal but I suppose I’ll take what I can get. Don’t even know my hours though. In your last email you reported that Yoshi was good, and if I recall correctly he spiralled all of 2 days after you sent it, so bloody good timing on that. He’s doing worse, he keeps getting knocked down, more than he used to I feel like. He keeps getting up but I don’t know how long he can continue so we need to do something, but the NHS is complete ****. I think the antidepressants work well but he needs to be medicated for his anxiety and get some coping mechanisms for his triggers. I need to find out how best to help him when he’s disassociating or having a panic attack. I guess I might have an opportunity this holiday since I’ll be with him 24/7, not that I want to though. Obviously I want him to enjoy this holiday and forget about all his problems but it’s never that simple. We won’t be drinking, which is definitely the right choice for him. I’m happy to know I’m one of 2.5 people Yoshi can turn to when he’s having issues, I mean really if I’m that high up on the ranking he clearly needs better friends or something given how **** I am with feelings, but hey I’ve worked hard so I deserve it. Regrettably Alex is still dating Joyce. I had a dream last night where they broke up and I was bitterly disappointed when I woke up. These past few weeks she’s been away have been so peaceful, can text him whenever I want and he responds as quickly as he used to. That is to say of course that Joyce clearly takes up too much of his time, like them dating is fine but don’t ignore everyone else! Well I hope everything goes well with results/delaying resits and that everything goes smoothly on holiday with Yoshi. Best regards, Arlo “1 Year On T” Linnard