A letter from Oct 4th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, If you are reading this, then you made it past 17; wow. I don't know if you will even read this considering there is a pretty big chance that you will be dead. How is testosterone? Was it worth the wait? How much do you still resent mom and dad? Did you ever become a big streamer? I hope I can answer these questions later. Are you comfortable in your identity as a trans guy? Do you have a partner? You are gonna do great things. You will be amazing. <3

Epilogue

over 1 year later

[WRITTEN 10/4/2023]
How is T? Less impactful and not life-changing in the ways we wanted, but there in the things we never would have expected. Worth the wait?...

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