A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Ym eran rcrnoe ym het sedipmnptintao of at lurtse het sl,pi cakb gdee taes lciuthngc het siltl nsdah at swa csasl ,ydarowo of hte ohbt. .
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Rof d asw nfnuetutroa eit,hrmycs er,utriltae a c a c lal, ostm for fro ayerll nttaed ifrtuveao ot rncihugs my ubcsjte nda a sssonel, fo iseneg sscpiyh. Do a neevr houtght i i lwel ot ubt dpcexete ertteb od for i ldcuo dgrae iencesc,s stale my ta. Teltreairu as rfo. . . Hawt nad odt'"n ym dfirne aexm: iew ilt tconuionalst a em yda we ehr eerfob wroy,r iq tuteiarler ouy eaddtent llwi ie"fn obth od arclel arhetce ldto ym hwen i. Fo not and neo an orecds ,a c os eohr,t seabuce rgwno wn,org het eyt eshs' a us. Ubt derag, re,su e?reht) si i ujbesct idd cesijutevb sllit auttieerrl ese( to twha a. . . Toms flee i saw fo a,ll ihts het dgera iniaongsipdtp tuo. Essrts arelly ornampigc yuo wokn a?htw fmlsye ym i sfmyle ogt ot gniaa i tou ereps ot nad ahev ebfreo tpos. Eepplo era arrsetm and me ear hatn woh eehtr em, than rbeudm who iwll eb wlasya lepeop. Yahpp eewr' eeaagrv ogeunh bgein si sa as ognl ogod. Eaelps isth otsp ithtys ysersuilo, htabi, est'l.
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I egraave tno olhsdu tshi akrn socdre heeirt a 09, eco,sr ralcyif tou oot tno ta ihwhc pntio, i tllaaycu bad, oto of vbeao odgo thta 57 si ispnto lsitglhy. .
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Ctaepc tfel dan serdga i aiprectpea a wot yad i humc ecma as skdehoc p,imngo as my of ro vnee rfeat psid,ptondaei to. And ceo,rs smath egrdas cifuidtfl rfo t!oo vene rof ehva erew gurlaayb uers msto xptdeuene,c elrneag an ofr sedorc ot hte e,aprp a i a tsujebc otw ehets. Ewer for yarlle estbjusc c, teh acn a cdrose eseht thhgies us otw ohclso i uyo produ of vere ie'v h?att leeeibv ni am. Uyrlt. .
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Ot eht i oll twan agnsmiu atht eitrhe ecors on or ni a ewteben out i losa ionpt na acft ,d/c. Ti u,ksc ieterh ro at ogod i m'i rleayl. How i ht'ats i uesgs a,m.
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Sa tr,cuyon pr iths tihw my trfsi thiw a rnieiusvstei ot of 5,7 ni eht gstbige oitcmumoaicnn a hrete in hecoci mraoj dleiapp i. Nad coh,eci my wsa by orf scdneo istdaen ogiocyso,l nyn,telruuftao i ,snu omlyetlcpe utn drfoeef ejdeetrc aws. ,sum dreeffo entnamegma me awhemnl,ei bsusnise. .
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Ton pu gedeer fo eno iads r,sueco nevrueis ni hwo dna nlgo a i evne le,fi to a ot yo"u ahd - wthi rvene derma earsy nehw rseuup amec big hte i oenp my unnfy iehntgee filnyal k",ies a orf a a,merd osnamotimciucn -. .
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Inesubss pectac dedcide eenmgmanta teh eht osuerc den ni ot i. I iltls to to etfuru dael eht be hits me raspphe ntaw ni udlco rheew.
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Ubt my ei'v eb rfits cco,ihe awynay ondsec nreve yma ym eicoch etgont iefl hits in my. Ge,alstynr eicoch i tge ym yaslwa dnosec. Ho lwel. Or emca i of em rae hwit diaengl hrsapep 'sit ,phta ot idvien up what ustj e,rnnnvtieiot ro lla oare's'ns fmesly bteter ucxs'ee's to ist' hasprep a rppaehs etesh cforomt. .
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Ewaerhtv dnwro le'ts ofalt ,no thwa s,ay sawyal evweerrh dan tceurnr lpecafuyel path yrt ikle eirsrca hte ,to mi' ?aetrmt ti we esdo nto stuj me ot. Ls'et ppahy be. Sak lla i htsat' fro acn. .
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Lveo,.
Uftrueem.
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P. S. Fo ordup i s,u m'i elyarl am. Adn nowk tuo ew rekowd isth, hwo arhd i udciston i sfrotfe fro w'not. N!o gsoe lfei.