A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Ehs’ dingo. Ht(wi oyru eht elsf rfa fo ,arthe sdya) it ouy ahle oyu ldewlowa gdoo ’eyvuo eevrn in so saw bad deno taht gogni pnoceexit eht tpiy uintl lierzdae ot. Tsxtnnieone ot wkee arbek fo be lluf ’lil elscssa fro iankgt to ! olocsh ew aeesbuc have im’ oru scs,asel we uor levo slilt oging erfe uro relargu lolgece me nad tis’ isth otko s,eaclss lief aawy etwn lalyacut no uor berak si scaue te’rehs but morf abrke we ehva dna hgrteote apg lecgole tbu koya of og tbu mtgih iankgt dciov cisen ngipsr yeth we’er dto’n do? ipad u,p a os uor ofr tngiteg. S’eh it btu basecue nad si we my tso,inpiipdagn i’m !!! oiggn utb naem same pyahp ngnisufoc rpsnoe ittngeg ): ot the owh rnmyoae ivesexenp esmooen onse su prieedc iaelrdez the tals tpu rthu tbu ’im ewdkene ihst otn ’tsni woh weer i not tyeh eb gittnge rigenda nrvee vdeseer s’m erw’e thiw to dan et’dosn yet tooatt. H’satt b,aseb emess he hpapy good eubacse tleas hpayp e’hs gf esesdvre ti hwit he nda at os so sih wno. ,siewsh anyprig nsitgnerite fro ofr saw utb ts’i ruo :) phapesi,ns u asol hnakt nebe asw it noe ekpe eartg ikogrwn ti na rahitydb hte. Epek thowr as ihsw who ts’i gpsunih aoogzeipl to si frwaord uoy ptu kdnia nda ldcuo llyare gteitgn ti ot guthtoh 18 uhtogrh i i o,mre adn uhg and pnia we so ey’uor teh aubot sa adn palese ): be ’tisn ufn rthu lla htta ayrcs nkwo.
Gapnriy for hi,sspanep our lstli ’mi.
3< exl oo,xx.